Trying to Make Sense of it All
November 18, 2009 | Category: I'm a Daughter, I'm a Friend, I'm The Rage's Momma
Call me lucky – but I’m surrounded by amazing people. And when things happen to those people, it’s hard to understand the Universe. I want to understand why things happen, but sometimes I just can’t.
My father in law passed away 8 months ago today. I found out that I was pregnant with this child one day after his funeral. We never got to tell him the good news. He LOVED babies.
My grandma pass away last week, on my birthday, 11 days before my due date. She thought I looked a little large for only having “one baby in there” and was skeptical if the doctors might be wrong. It’s been one week and I miss her dearly.
Yesterday, my dear friend Anissa had a massive stroke and her future is very much undetermined. We have lots in common, except she’s way funnier than me with much bigger boobs. (don’t worry – she would insist that I tell you that) Today she’s fighting for her life today and I’m banking on her pulling through this.
And all the while, when I’m overwhelmed with sadness; I know that there is good in the world. I’m confident that even in our darkest hour God wants us to rejoice, and find joy.
That in the midst of our grief, I know that happiness has to be around the corner. That tomorrow is a new day – filled with miracles, surprises and life.
~Jeremiah 29:11
*beautiful photo taken just yesterday by another one of my many blessings, Casey.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:08 pm
Beautiful. Nothing says hope for a brighter tomorrow more than a gorgeous, round belly.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:09 pm
Lovely post. I just met Anissa in Boston last month and thought her energy, humor and passion was so contagious. I pray she will use that now to push through.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:09 pm
Beautiful words and a beautiful picture.
Prayers for your new life and for Anissa's health and family and friends.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:17 pm
I love this.
Love that pic, too. Yes, Anissa would have wanted you to say that and she'd love this post, too.
xoxo my good friend.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:17 pm
There's hope. Just look at that beautiful belly and tell me there isn't…
God is faithful!
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:17 pm
And the beauty that can be found in the rubble of grief, like the beauty of your love for your friend and your grandparents, those are miracles in the midst of the pain. I'm sorry.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:18 pm
Absolutely beautiful post and picture. ~ I didn't get the opportunity to ever meet Anissa. We actually just became twitter friends on Tuesday night. I don't understand why things happen like this.
I want to say that I am so sorry for the loss of both of your grandparents.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:27 pm
We will hold strong to the faith that our God is a God of miracles and that He is here admist the chaos.
"Father – we put Anissa into Your Hands, pleading with you for Your Divine Healing in her life. We will continue to pray and continue to plead as you have taught us to continue knocking until we have our answer. Thank you for the MIGHTY WORK You are about to do!"
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:32 pm
Babies are proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy.
Or maybe that's cupcakes.
Regardless.
My sentiments exactly.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:41 pm
I loved this post!
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November 18th, 2009 @ 9:43 pm
i miss my daddy every time i look at my kids. he would have been an amazing grandpa….
praying for anissa over here, too.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 10:10 pm
Today has made me understand a bit what God means when he says "Pray without ceasing". Sometimes that is all we can do. Your belly looks beautiful BTW. And all of this is just another reminder that we need to hold those we love close.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 10:14 pm
So beautiful. Praying for Anissa and for you.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 10:32 pm
I am praying for Anissa, and you too. You look unbelievably good. I hope it goes great for you.
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November 18th, 2009 @ 11:48 pm
that picture is beautiful! praying for your friend tonight!!
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November 19th, 2009 @ 1:41 am
wow… so young.. my prayers are with her and the family. love that pic of ur belly btw.. man ur so ready lol
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November 19th, 2009 @ 2:18 am
such a beautiful post.
((hugs))
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November 19th, 2009 @ 2:36 am
Postpartum tears reading your post….beautiful shot of that belly too. Cant wait to meet that kiddo!
HHHUUUUGGGG!
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November 19th, 2009 @ 4:18 am
It's all part of this crazy thing called LIFE, isn't it?
I don't know Anissa very well but from what I've read in the last day or so, I know you're right.
You are ALL belly woman. Can't wait to 'meet' your sweet little one!!
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November 19th, 2009 @ 12:51 pm
Praying for Anissa!
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November 19th, 2009 @ 5:45 pm
Beautiful post Emily! LOVE the belly pic.
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November 19th, 2009 @ 5:50 pm
I've been thinking about you. I hope you are resting your sweet heart. I am so sorry for this sadness and loss. I am praying for Anissa, she will cherish your post.
Steph
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November 19th, 2009 @ 10:43 pm
Beautiful post.
Hope is a wonderful thing.
Prayers for Anissa.
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November 20th, 2009 @ 2:43 am
This was such a beautiful post. You and your daughter are so beautiful as well… I literally wept when I saw the pictures on Casey's site. Truly amazing! I might add that that belly looks like a BOY bump! Can't wait for the good news. You're in my thoughts!
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November 20th, 2009 @ 1:33 pm
You're belly looks so cute! Praying for your friend! On a side note I saw on your twitter that they think you're having a nine-pounder. My son was 8.13 and I didn't tear. Have no fear…you can do it!
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November 20th, 2009 @ 7:51 pm
love the belly pics and birdie is such a sweetheart. when mom called this morning i knew right away what you had as she was crying with joy on the phone. i am so proud of you. great job!! can't wait to meet the little one!!
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December 3rd, 2009 @ 1:04 pm
Wow. You've been through a lot this year.
I love that quote. My husband and I say it to each other all the time.
ciao,
rpm
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