fourth is one, and we’re done.
January 14, 2013 | Category: four
You guys, baby Paul turned one yesterday.
It was a standard Sunday by all accounts, complete with early service church and “clean the fridge out” leftover lunch. In the evening, we went to neighborhood dinner, just like we always do at 5:30pm. The only difference was that for dessert, we celebrated with a fantastic rendition of Happy Birthday and some amazing cupcakes picked up from the store down the street.
It was a perfect and special day, even if it didn’t include too much fanfare.
(also worth noting, I’m really bad at taking video, but it’s cute regardless)
And if I’m being honest with myself, this is “my baby is turning one” thing is a whole lot harder than I thought it would be. In the past, since I knew we would probably have four kids, I’ve never really let myself mourned the end to the first year. I could always hush my emotions with “there will be more, this isn’t the end” type mentality.
But this time, it’s done. The first year of my last baby is complete.
I was whining to Michael about it a few days back, and was all “I can’t believe Paul is almost one, and we’re rally done! I’ll never be pregnant again, never breastfeed again, and never swaddle another (one of my) babies again.
And his responds: “I’m so glad we’re done! You’ll never be pregnant again, you’ll never breastfeed again, and we’ll never have to care for an infant again.”
To this, I shrug my shoulders, and I know he’s probably right. Pregnancy and life with a newborn is hard. And I know I’m reminiscing the past through rose colored glasses.
But it’s still OK to mourning just a little bit, right?
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January 14th, 2013 @ 12:33 pm
He is so so so cute, Emily! The best is yet to come, right? As you know since you have three older children…
But I know, it’s so hard, isn’t it? My BABY—my baby!!!—is turning FIVE on Friday. I cannot cannot cannot believe. I baby him like crazy, still. And it’s boggling my mind how he’s so… old… already! Sigh…
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January 14th, 2013 @ 12:46 pm
mourn girl. and then take my baby in May and pretend he’s yours for an hour.
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January 14th, 2013 @ 12:58 pm
The last firsts killed me. Killed.
Now she’s almost two! TWO!
How the hell did that happen?
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January 14th, 2013 @ 1:46 pm
I still mourn a little for some of that as well, my friend.
BUT. Mine are all out of diapers now and when that happens, I hear you never want to go back.
He’s precious! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PAUL!!!!!
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January 14th, 2013 @ 2:12 pm
Emily,
It’s totally okay to mourn! I’m having such a hard time with it that I’m not sure if I’m done or not! I just wonder if there are women who will always long for an infant, even if they feel like it’s time to stop! Happy Birthday to Paul! Looks like you had a great day!
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January 14th, 2013 @ 4:03 pm
I’m with you. I will forever mourn not having more babies and never being pregnant again. But as I’ve reminded myself a million times, there HAS to be a last baby sometime.
And why is it that the guys are always glad the baby phase is over when it is the WOMEN who do 98% of that work? Makes me nuts.
Happy 1st Birthday to your darling boy!
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January 14th, 2013 @ 8:02 pm
So cute!
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January 14th, 2013 @ 8:19 pm
that video was the sweetest thing! plus Paul was all like, “fools, why are you singing? there is a perfectly good cupcake RIGHT THERE!” and then when he could have it? He looked at you all like, “you all are dummies.” Heh.
Happy birthday, Paul. You’ve got good people.
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January 14th, 2013 @ 9:23 pm
Yup, it totally is fine girl. Just gives you a reason to swarm all the little babies in your life from all your friends
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January 14th, 2013 @ 9:48 pm
Happy birthday, baby Paul.
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January 15th, 2013 @ 8:51 am
Cute video! I loved how he just picked up that cupcake right up and took a bite. All of your children are adorable.
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January 15th, 2013 @ 12:34 pm
The feeling eventually goes away. Mine are 16 and 18. I spent many years wishing for another baby. Finally have to say in the past year the wish is finally gone. Looking forward to grandchildren in the distant, way distant, future. Although, my 16-year-old was sick the other day and requested Dora the Explorer chicken noodle soup. Guess they are always our babies.
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January 15th, 2013 @ 9:33 pm
Happy birthday Baby Paul! He’ll always be Baby Paul to me. Mourn away, mama. Love you!
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January 16th, 2013 @ 1:32 pm
Happy birthday sweet Paul! Your video made my day.
I still get aches even though my “baby” will be 5 this spring of never having a baby again. I wonder if it will always be that way even when they’re grown and gone? *hugs* friend.
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